Crying is never fun. Espically when you do it in front of people... Unless you're looking for sympathy.

I made myself cry yesterday when I was telling my sister that either she or my best friend needed to have babies because I was no longer able to have kids of my own. I don't know why that started to make me cry.

I guess I'm not dealing with this as well as I would hope. I can't watch commericals with babies in them, because I get envious. I can't help it. You know how I feel about this, I've talked about it so much, you're all sick of hearing it by now.

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Tonight we were watching old episodes of Ugly Betty (yay Netflix!) and the chick that Daniel is dating, just found out her cancer came back worse than ever.
I think that the thing that I'm most afraid of is the cancer coming back....
and being worse than ever. And feeling absolutly helpless because of it. I know its a valid fear, and its something that some cancer patients have to go through. I just really don't want it to be me.... I really REALLY don't want it to be me.